I feel as if I am on the brink of suicide?

If you had a perscription for these meds, the lawyer should be able to get you off the charges...I would go with trial by jury...because it just works better than one judge deciding...who might happen to not like you...basically the more you pay for the attorney the better the results...I would never put my freedom in the hands of a court appointed attorney, or a prosecutor. Don't give up wait and see what happens...and believe that there is a power out there looking after your well being...live with your problems, it is always better than using meds,they just make it worse...many people are dealing with these same things...at least your not looking at jail time...trust that God will never put in front of you something He won't help you deal with...don't let your fear become an obsession...you will be all right, I had to go in and face a gun charge...and could of done a year...but I got a good attorney, and although I was a little nervous...I figured a year in jail wouldn't be that bad...since I like to meditate anyway, lol..but it worked out....I would run before I would commit suicide! lol Oh, and the first time I went to court, without an attorney, they tried to put me in front of the prosecutor without giving me a choice of guilty/not guilty/ attorney/ trial by jury...railroading its called...I made a total fool of myself and said I need an attorney...now I can look back and laugh about it!